Healing Rest: Finding Serenity in Self-Reconciliation

Hello, beloved. It's MarQuita, wanting to just check in with you today, and see how you're doing, how you're really doing. I have found that there are times when our rest can be interrupted, our rest can be broken. When we think about the different aggressions, microaggressions, major aggressions, heartaches, and heartbreaks that have been tossed and thrown our way, inflicted upon us even if you will, it can make us deeply sad. It can hurt our feelings.

Sitting in that space too long can cause some of us to feel as if we have little or no value to anyone. We might even begin to believe that something that we have said, something we've done, even our being born, is justification for others' bad behavior toward us. The pain of it, the trauma of it, can break our rest. It can keep rest and sleep at bay.

And there are also times, if we are honest about it, we very well may be missing out on sleep, on rest, on peace, dare I say joy, because of ways that we have caused harm to others. Do you have friendships that have waned? Do you have misunderstandings that have not been straightened out? Do you have anything left unsaid or undone with someone that you really love?

Now, do not understand me to suggest that you go back into re-traumatization or you go back into relationships that are unhealthy? Not. Is there a way that you can reconcile within yourself, and admit that sometimes there may be someplace where a word that you have spoken, a gesture that you have made, or a decision that you carried out caused someone else pain, agony, trauma, or sadness, even if it was unintentional on your part?

There is space within serenity for you to reconcile that, even within yourself. Think about it for just a moment. Where have you mishandled someone else's trust? Where have you fanned a flame that really should have been doused out? Where did you repeat that story you heard? Have you stopped? Have you considered it? Have you forgiven yourself for any harm that you have caused?

This is important, beloved, because sometimes our rest is broken, not because of what someone else has done to us, but sometimes it's because of what we have done to others. So beloved even for us, those of us who are imperfect, those who have not always gotten it right, serenity is still waiting.